trust

Most of my life i didn't really trust you. The fatherly examples I was given as a child taught me that most are untrustworthy. When I heard others call you "father", it left me feeling uneasy and I wasn't sure I could trust you either, so I didn't, not entirely.

But in the last few years I have grown to deeply trust you.
How did that happen?

Because, you,  the Lover of my soul, were pursuing me.
You saw what things I had put my trust in:

~my right living
~relationships
~the church

Gradually but steadily you stripped away my trust in each of these things. You exposed them and me. Your light penetrated to the truth and the weakness in each of them.
 My trust in relationships with humans was crushed. We are all imperfect. We will always disappoint at one time or another.
Any trust in myself to live righteously was shattered. You allowed my sinful nature to be exposed.  I saw who I really was: a pitiful sinner with nothing to offer you.
But as I sat there empty...with nothing left to trust in, your gracious unconditional love was revealed.  You loved me even as my deep ugliness was exposed! You said, "I'm glad, my daughter, that you finally understand that you have nothing to offer me. Now you can begin to truly comprehend my grace and my loving sacrifice for you. Let me fill you with my love and show you what a perfect Father I can be to you."

And that's when the change took place..."I trust you, because you know who I really am, yet your love is deeper than any human love I've ever experienced."
It is a perfect love.
A love that can be trusted.

Fear is dissolved in perfect love.
No need to fear rejection or worry about abandonment;  Perfect love leaves a deep, peaceful rest in your soul. You don't need to pine for attention nor worry about striving to be enough,
because His love is enough.